MissGingerIce

Hello everyone!
Hope you're all doing well.

So, Wicked was absolutely, positively, wonderfully, AMAZING!!!  
I think I've fallen in love...with a musical...That sounds a little silly, but I loved it! I was originally going to see it on the 1st, but I could only get tickets for earlier today, and I wish I could go back and watch it ten times over!  
It was just...well, it may sound silly, but it was so relatable.  I mean, I know I'm not a witch with green skin, but the struggles that the characters faced really spoke to me, especially at this point in my life.  I mean, when you're only trying to be good, be strong, and help others, and yet...everything seems to just fall down around you...
Well, as the musical itself explains, no good deed goes unpunished.  If a good deed can even be considered a good deed...through changed eyes...
And it's so true, it brought tears to my eyes.
For I am very sentimental that way.

And, I have this feeling...It's hard to place.  I think it's a good feeling, but it almost hurts.  Perhaps, a combination of feelings.  Inspiration, I'm almost certain that's one of them.  For, could you imagine being able to write such a story as Wicked?  How amazing would that be?!  To be the brain behind something so wonderful!  I bet that would be exhilarating.  Then...If you could be a part of something so successful?  If you can act in something as accomplished as this?
And, yet, I can't help but think that one of the other emotions is hopelessness...For, dreams, delusions of grandeur such as mine, hardly ever come true.  Surely not for me...
Admiration has got to be one of the other emotions.  The actresses/actors in the show that I saw did the most amazing job!  Honestly, if they were to ever make a Wicked movie (They seriously need to.  For real.) I think they should use the cast that I witnessed today.  Seriously, absolutely amazing job.
Then, of course, there's sadness, for there's no way for me to re-watch the flawless performance I witnessed today.  I bought the CD, but it's the original cast, not the cast I saw today...It's not quite the same.  But still amazing

Honestly, the show today was just what I needed.  Perhaps I'm just a silly girl, but I look deep into stories, I stare at their meanings under a magnifying glass and it really moves me.  Inspires.  It really picked me up.  I mean, sure I've been feeling down, in so many different ways for so many different reasons.  And yet, this musical showed me that I'm not the only one who feels this way.  So conflicted, so eager to do the right thing, not only for myself, but for everyone else.  It showed me that my weakness is okay.  Feeling down on your luck is alright.  Even... When you feel like you're cashing in your dreams for something seemingly less...well, extravagant, you can still be good, at least in your own eyes.
And that's all that really matters.  How you perceive yourself.
Sure, having the acceptance of others makes things easier.  But as long as you can accept yourself.  Believe in yourself when you think no one else does, well, then sometimes life can surprise you.

I'm sorry.  I'm just babbling

Long story short, Wicked is an astonishing show.  Go see it some time.  It's totally worth whatever money you'd spend on it.  Trust me.  Especially if you're a sucker for musicals like I am

Oh, and on a not so happy note, or, well, I guess maybe it is a happy note...
I'm quitting my job...
I already told my boss.  I was terrified he would...well...be himself when I told him.  But he was really cool about it.
I know it was the right thing for me, for my health, both mentally and physically. Yet, I feel a certain guilt, or maybe it's not...It could be pride, because for once in my life I stood up for myself.  I usually just allow everyone to walk all over me.  Outwardly I seem fine with it, Inwardly, not so much...
And I finally defended myself and realized that I deserve to be treated better than dirt.  It's a huge step forward for me, even though it doesn't sound like much.

Oh, and my sister and I are considering getting sister tattoos...
What are your opinions on tattoos?
I mean, I have always been hesitant about them, because they are permanent.  I never wanted to get something silly and regret it a week later, you know?  But this tattoo would be smaller, about 2 inches or so, and it would be a sister tattoo.  I love my sister so much.  And we're going to be sisters forever, so a tattoo seems fitting, yet, I still find that I'm nervous...
Any advice, friends?  Does it sound silly to you?

I think that about covers everything.  
I don't mean for my journal entries to be so long, I worry that they bore you all.  If you managed to read through this entire entry, or if you just skimmed it, thank you for your time.  Much appreciated

And, of course, I want you all to know that I really do appreciate and love all of you. My watchers, my friends, you are all just so amazing.  I love you all, even if we never talk.  Thank you so much for allowing my work to appear in your messages

That really is all I have to say.  I promise.
Enjoy the rest of your night (or day) everyone!  Take care!